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Claiming asylum in the UK: Nadim's story


Nadim claimed asylum in the UK because his life was in danger in his home country. He shared his story with SOGICA to send a message of hope to anyone fleeing SOGI persecution. We wish all the best to Nadim in his new life.

My name is Md Nadim Uddin and my pronounce he/him, 30 Years old. I was born in Bangladesh, currently living in London. In back home I was closeted GAY men, I was unable to speak to anyone about my sexuality, I cried many night in my own because I had no one to speak to about my sexuality, the unbearable pain I went through.

When I reached adolescence I realised I was emotionally and sexually attracted only to men. I did not desire a single women so I knew I was different but I was scared, alone, depressed, zero self-esteem, terrified of being find out about my sexuality by other people.

I was told being homosexual is dirty, sinful and I believed it. I was raised as a Muslim in our religion there is Imam stating that if you are practising homosexual, parents of homosexual you will go to hell. With this mix messages bubbling in my head I started to become depressed without even realising it. I would be there with my friends and family but I would felt so fake. At this time I will tell myself if I just smile everything would be fine. It is scary how much a smile can hide. I was bullied for being different in person it was not only from complete stranger but people I trusted most including my family, friends, class mate, neighbour. Over the course of school year I got call so many hateful and hurtful words. As a kids some of this words went over my head. After this I never had the courage to come out to anyone. I decided to stay in a closet and hide my sexuality.

I grew up in fear where I honestly didn’t feel very connected to anybody. Even in school I didn’t feel connected to anybody I remember perfectly sitting in the school yard I was bullied all the time at the same time I was Ignored all the time. The only time people talked to me is to bully me. I thought to myself  I am sitting there one day looking at everyone they are hanging out together  I thought to myself I am the loneliest boy the whole world and grew up with that mentality. I grew up feeling that I am disconnected from everyone in my country.

What a pathetic, sad, suffocating and lonely life I had growing up in my own home country where I was born. Many nights I had suicidal thought of ending my life because I couldn’t take it anymore. I wish I was straight, If I were straight I would have lived in my country with people I love and be happy. I grew up thinking homosexuality is a mental dieses. Because that’s what I heard in mosque by Imam. During my teen years I really hated myself. Back home as a LGBT person there is not much to do you end up getting depressed, stressed, it will destroy you like mentally well it’s not life. Basically dead soul  in live body. Some people say that homosexuality is a choice or a preference. No it’s neither a choice nor preference. This is how I was born and this is how GOD has made me.

UK is my new home. For me, home is where I feel secure, where I feel loved Where I can live the life I want to without any fear. When I arrive in the UK It is here that for the first time in the UK I realise that being GAY is a gift not a curse. It is here in the UK I realise that for the first time it is okay to love a men, it was a rebirth. Until coming to UK I was seeing the world black and white for the first time I was experiencing all its colours. When I participated London LGBT pride walk for the first time in my life I knew there was no going back. For someone born and broad up in cage I was experiencing freedom for the first time. I walked proudly in London LGBT pride walk freely proud of my sexuality.

I have a new family I have lost most of my biological family members. Right now I have my chosen family my partner, my friends, my LGBTQI+ community. This is my family with whom I feel safe, loved and secure.

My messaged to all closeted LGBT people please take carriage to come out, so that closeted Gay, Lesbians, Bisexual, Transgender, Queer, Intersex can experience freedom that I experienced. If you possess enough courage to speak out what you are, you will find you are not alone. Only by speaking out can we create lasting change. And that change begins with coming out.

As far my message to all homophobic people you can at least try take baby step

  1. Stop making jokes about us.
  2. Stop harassing us.
  3. Stop teasing us.
  4. Stop discriminating against us.
  5. Stop showing us as scary creature on film and serial,
  6. Stop killing us.
  7. Stop sexually abusing us.

Is that too much to ask for to be treated as human being with dignity and respect. For centuries we warriors have fought this battle first as sinner, then as deviant and now as criminal. I am proud of all my struggle for being gay first with my selves then with society. I am proud of every tear I have share. I am proud of wound I have received. I am proud of  every scar I have received. There is nothing I should be ashamed off. There is nothing that I should hide. This is how I stand, this is how I will stand. Live my life as open gay with my freedom out and proud, no more hiding my sexuality.








Now I am older I have advice for the others who are currently going through all this IGNORE them. There opinion cannot change who you are it’s your life to live only you know what’s that truly means. There is nothing wrong with you, you are beautiful, wanted, perfect just the way you are. To this I am still afraid people not accepting me or my fellow LGBTQ+ friends that I would not even consider my family. But if you have family members and friends they don’t accept you I hope you know that the LGBTQ+ community will accept you, LGBTQ+ community is here to support you and love you. I am here for you, we are here to hold you to keep your head held high and help you getting confident who you are.


I hope we can all work together to overcome this suicidal conflict and help change the world for better. I hope we can all get further involve to but more equal and equitable future for all LGBTQI+ members. I want to help other realise that religion can indeed coexist with different sexuality and gender identity. That LGBTQI+ people shouldn’t be view as unnatural. I would like to increase visibility for bisexual, transgender, pan sexual family members so they feel more seen and included.